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How breast cancer is reshaping everything

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By Jennifer Denbo
I wanted to start this blog so other women, family and friends could see a real perspective into the life of cancer. Not just what I am experiencing, but what others may experience or see loved ones experience themselves. I am a mom of two girls ...
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Taking It From The Top
I wanted to start this blog so other women, family and friends could see a real perspective into the life of cancer. Not just what I am experiencing, but what others may experience or see loved ones experience themselves. I am a mom of two girls (Kaylee 10, and Sophie 4) and married for 11 years this year to my husband John Marc. We live in Rolla, MO and all of my treatments will be here at Phelps County Regional Medical Center. I was diagnosed on January 16, 2013, at 5:15 p.m. A moment in time I believe the Earth stopped turning, and my heart stopped beating. Even if it was for a split second. This blog was started January 21, 2013 at 6:22 p.m. when I was ready to speak. (and when my S.I.L. Claire was ready to help with the tech stuff:) I hope you enjoy taking this journey with me. I WILL beat Breast Cancer! I did not want to turn to Google for my answers, I wanted to find my own. These are them:
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As chemo winds down my brain wants to take to me to the wonderful land of No Cancerville. Oh what a great place it will be! But then again, is it?

I have no idea what life after cancer will be, because I’ve never had cancer before this. Does everything go back? Is this like Back to the Future and I can set my clock to January 15, 2013, the day before I found out I had cancer. Live my life like I lived it that day? Probably not a good day to pick as I was going over and over and over in my head the many ways I was going to get told I did indeed have cancer, or I am not the 5% that gets cancer under 40. But, anyhow the point is… who am I after this? Am I the same? Am I different? Is that a good thing, or a bad thing? I have no answers.

All I can do is hope and pray and believe in my soul that I will get through this and beat cancers ass! That one day I will look back at my struggles and realize I had to do everything I did to save my life. Everything I gave up…had to be given up. That indeed every scar on my body was put their for a reason…to keep me here on Earth to live another day. It’s not an easy thing to accept. I’m still working on it.

So for now I will take each day as it is given and do the best I can. Try my hardest to get through this horrible time and see the light at the end of the tunnel. The chemo is doing everything in it’s power to shut me down, and what feels like kill me…but I won’t let it. On days when I can barely get out of bed, I know it is one more day behind me. And one day closer to remission.

I also still worry about reoccurance and so on, but I have to stop myself and learn to live in this momemt. I can’t worry about getting cancer again, when I have not yet defeated the cancer I have now.

I will end by saying…I don’t have all the answers, but I wish I did. :)

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